I Would Love To Look Like This

I'm a proud fat girl. And yes, I said fat. Not plus size, not voluptuous, not size 10+10. Fat. Because it's what I am. And it's funny, people think that if you're fat, you're curvy. You're voluptuous and whatnot. I will burst your bubble with a smirk on my face and say NO. That is wrong. Because not all fat girls are curvy. Me, I have curves. My hips are wide and I have a waist that is developing (it was hard to find my waist due to my scoliosis) and they give me a shape. But then again, there are things I can't wear because my lumps and blumps and klumps show in a way that's unattractive. Not everything makes me looks slimming. Not everything I can hide.

It's really tricky. It is. You have the plus size that means size 6+. You have the plus size that means curvy ladies only. You have the plus size that means fat ladies only. You have plus size that means it's time to shop at the Old Lady Department . . . there's a lot. And it's hard to place us in a category, because there are so many among one title: Plus Size.

But I always wondered why we had to be placed in a category to begin with. Why couldn't clothes just go up to the 20+ sizes and just leave it at that? We know we're fat. You don't have to bring pressure to us with a label.

I told myself and I am true to this, I said that if I lost weight I would never become thin. I will remain thick, because that's what I want to be. I like to feel meat. Not a huge excess, but I like to feel meat! Some jiggle. I feel most comfortable in that skin. That girl above? That's a beautiful shape. She's a beauty in general. I would never be ashamed to walk in a bra and pantie looking like her. So she's my weight loss goal.